Help

Jun 20

How do you tell someone you hear things, that simply are not there?
That the voices told you to, or that you can truly feel people stare?
How do you help people understand, something you can’t grasp yourself?
Tell me, how do I find the right type of help?

I can feel it getting worse, with each and every day.
I’ve spent hours upon hours searching, for the right words to say.
Still all I know for sure, is that something is really wrong.
It is no longer just a matter of trying to be strong.

How can I trust people, when they can hear my each and every thought?
And when I ask they simply lie, as if they’ve all been taught.
How do I fight something I can’t consciously control?
That makes me believe everyone I meet, is playing some kind of role?

See they all know what’s going on, but me? I’ve been made blind.
And the only answer that they give me, is ‘it’s all in your mind’.
But I know they are controlling this, what’s happening to me,
Because here, on this earth, is exactly where I’m not supposed to be.
I have lived past my due date, I’ve survived for far too long,
Now the only thing I know for sure is that my being here is wrong.
I don’t want to die, but that’s the only way to make this right.
For my family to have a future I must not be in sight.

I’m so confused and scared, what is real and what is not?
I don’t know how to live this life but it’s the only one I’ve got.
Help.